“I want to sit at your feet
Drink from the cup in your hand.
Lay back against you and breathe, feel your heart beat
This love is so deep, its more than I can stand
I melt in your peace, it’s overwhelming…”-Kari Jobe, The More I Seek You
Sometimes I just want to kick myself for worrying about things that I can’t control. I know everyone has this problem to an extent. I mean, not being able to forsee the outcome of something that is supposedly all of your responsibility is pretty uncomfortable. My tendency is to just keep trying harder, instead of letting it go. I often have the mindset that if I just go that extra mile, think more deeply, sleep less, do more, read more…etc. then I will finally gain control.
I think hard work is so important, don’t get me wrong, but I think allowing work to control my feelings and worth is just digging a hole that never ends, until I end up forgetting why I started digging the hole in the first place.
I often have to ask myself, “why do I want to work hard and do well?” Is it to look good? Gain the approval of others? Boost my self-confidence? The thing is, those things never last.
That’s why Jesus came and said that He sets us free.
Free from the ensnaring urge to BE [fill in the blank].
Free from striving to be the best. The brightest. The most organized. The most confident…the list goes on.This week I was striving to be all of those things, and it was EXHAUSTING and STRESSFUL.
And I hate to brake it to you, but you’re never going to be the best. Nor the brightest. Nor the most organized. I will never be those things either. You know why? Because no human is.
I have come to the realization this week that peace cannot be maunfactured. We can only rest in the peace that Jesus has already promised us and given us on the cross.
Living in Spain has helped me to realize that the American tendency to view busyness and striving as success is flawed and dissatisfying. Something that I love about it here is that it is completely normal to go home, spend time with family for two hours or so, and then go back to work. Cherishing time with loved ones and embracing leisure time is definitely part of the culture. Generally speaking from personal experience, I’ve found that in the States, downing a latte, working overtime, and not sleeping is just part of the culture for the most part. I’m definitely guilty of that.
The purpose of this rant, is to remind you (and myself) to slow down.
Sit at Christ’s feet and feel his heartbeat.
Bask in His love, and His beautiful peace.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7