Whole. 8.26.14

” For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. Plans for good, and not disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11

I really should have practiced my Spanish more.

But here I am, 5 Days away from fulfilling a childhood dream of traveling abroad. Will I discover things about myself that I have never known?

Will I reevaluate my worldview to accommodate a more realistic perspective?

Will I witness horrible, beautiful, or horribly beautiful things?

All I know is that I still have to pack, and that I will most likely wait until the day before to pack, and then my mom is going to remind me that I always procrastinate packing and then I am going to stuff everything I think I need in a couple suitcases with their zippers straining, and make it out of the door in the nick of time. Just being real.

I also know that I am living with a single woman who is in her 50’s, have a roommate I have never met and who might see the world a lot differently than me, and that I need to just abandon my expectations right now because I have no idea what I am really doing.

I think the most important thing I know, however, is how real God’s faithfulness is. I feel it deep in my bones, deep in who I am. He is with me. And for the first time in a long time, I believe that His presence really is enough. Most of the time I am unsatisfied, striving for something more. But at least for now, I feel like I am grasping a little stronger His deep, unfailing love.

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